I am spreading the love for Slimming World as in my first week I managed to lose 6lbs. I am so pleased.  It may not seem a lot but it has given me the motivation to stick with it.

Don’t worry I am not stupid I know that in the first few weeks you always lose a bit more than normal but I don’t mind even if I lose a few pounds a week as it all helps.

Normally on weigh in day I have a little cheat….. That’s probably where I have gone wrong in the past. This time I didn’t though I continued with the plan and used my full 15 syns.

Doing this “healthy eating plan” has made me put myself first which is nice. I am really enjoying the swimming, even when I am feeling shattered in the evenings once I am in there I feel so much better.

Also it has taken my mind off dating.  It’s nice to have a break as otherwise you find yourself talking to people who you know are not really your cup of tea, so why waste your time and there’s making idle chit chat.

I am still chatting to my Electrician Essex Boy. If I am honest I have no idea what is going on as we both flirt with each other and there still seems to be a spark but I have decided that what will be will be and I will not get hung up about it. He was always a hard one to read so best not even try.

Being friends is good enough for me at the moment or am I just kidding myself?!

 

Should I be this nervous about my first weigh in?

No as I have been so good but I am, Why? Because if I have not lost a lot I will feel really de motivated which is silly I know.

My dad always say’s any loss however small it is, is better than putting on. Dad’s are always right so I should listen to him, even at my age.

I feel a lot better in myself this week, not bloated and sluggish so that in itself should be a good enough reason to stick with this new “healthy eating plan”. I have even started back swimming again with my good friend Bouche in the city. I think she may have swallowed some of the pool as we are always gossiping while in there. Having someone else to do this stuff with is great. I don’t mind going on my own as it gives me to think.

Starting my “healthy eating plan” means a lot to me as I was starting to lose confidence in myself and that is not an attractive thing. If I don’t love myself how do I expect others too?

There is a certain someone back on the scene, Electrician Essex boy……… you may remember a few posts from last year about him. Would or could we ever be anything else? I am really not sure but it is always nice to have more friends.

30 minutes until I find out how well or how bad I have really done.

Wish me luck.

 

 Diet!

This word feels me with dread; I can honestly say it’s a word that makes me come out in a cold sweat. Diet to me means you can’t eat what you really like or what and what is the point in that. I prefer to use the term “Healthy Eating” don’t you think it sounds better?

Like most of us I have been looking in the mirror the last few weeks and not liking what I am seeing and the only person who can change that is me!

So I have decided to do something. New Year new me.

I have tried many diets in my time and some have worked, The Cambridge Diet I lost 3 stone on but for me it wasn’t a long term thing, as I found it wasn’t good if you socialise a lot. Then there was Weight Watchers, which really wasn’t for me, I felt that I was constantly thinking about food, it felt too strict for me. I always end up going back to Slimming World, why? Because it doesn’t feel like I am on a diet as you can eat so much on it. My social life seems to revolve around eating as I am always going out for lunch or dinner with friends or round to someone’s house for a nice meal. At least this way I can still do all of this while I am on Slimming World.

My theory is that if I blog about me starting Slimming World it will give more even of a reason to stick to it as people might want to know how I am doing…. Well that’s my theory!

I have done my research and found a class that I can go to at lunch time at work, Wednesday’s 12.00, I am all set.

My fridge is stocked up with lots of “free food” the fruit bowl is flowing and I am feeling positive about it. Will I be feeling like this in a few weeks? You will have to keep an eye on my blog to find out.

Wish me luck!

2011 has been an amazing year. Never regret anything you do as that is what life is all about, living and learning. If you don’t make mistakes how are you meant to learn from them?

I have met some prize idiots this year but that is what dating is all about. You have to take the rough with the smooth and it makes great story telling.

In 2011 have I have dated 9 men actually make that 10……

One of them reminded me of my ex boyfriend

Another did not look like his picture

Two of them looked much better than their picture

Three of them I knew I didn’t like as soon as we met up – no spark

One looked like he was 17 and was certainly not athletic build

One broke my heart twice!

One has become a good friend of mine

And one …. Well who knows yet but I am looking forward to finding out!

I have learnt that friends are an extension of your family as they mean that much to you. Some friendships you out grow but you are glad of the memories that you share with them.

Sometimes you will not always have the answers your friends are looking for, but just by listening to them you are helping.

Most importantly I have learnt that the decisions I make are right for me and no-one else, people can have their views and opinion’s on what I do but at the end of the day it’s down to me.

Right or wrong I will find out for myself!

Thanks 2011 I have learnt a lot, but you know what there is always more to learn and I am ready for it……

My Tuesday night date with Adam was lovely. I was very impressed with myself as I managed to shower, wash my hair, iron my top, slap on some war paint (make up) and dry my hair all in 30 mins , Pat on the back for me.  To be fair I don’t wear a lot of make up never have really.

Adam arrived bang on 7pm, I opened the door and there he was with a bottle of my favourite wine and a big box of chocolates, how nice is he, *big smile across my face*. The choc and wine won’t be a regular thing it was his way of saying sorry for letting me down on Sunday.

It was really nice to see him again; I get this warm fuzzy feeling when I see him.

We left my house and drive to a really nice country pub, about 30 mins from mine. Adam is a quiet bloke but not too quiet as he holds his own conversation which I like and I love hearing his stories. I get the impression he is a well thought of bloke by friends and family.

The pub that he took me too was actually one I have driven past a few times and is on my list of pubs to try.  It was what I would call a cosy pub, log fires, comfy sofa’s you felt welcome as soon as you walked in. Adam being the gent that he is ordered me a glass of rose and got himself a drink.  We go off to find a table, typical date couple as we choose the table out-of-the-way of people so we could chat.

We seem to chat about everything and found we have a common ground of certain foods. Now this may sound silly to you but we were laughing about it. I have friends that love eating olives and when I lived in Cyprus I always wanted to like them as they looked so nice but every time I tried them I couldn’t stand them. They are the sort of food I want to like but just don’t, Mad I know. But it seems Adam is the same, he always tries them thinking one day he will suddenly like them lol.

We ordered a starter to share and carried on talking. I couldn’t stop looking at his eyes though as he has the loveliest blue eyes I have ever seen.

As always the conversation gets round to work, Adam tells me that from next week he will be working in Birmingham 5 days a week and back at the weekends until Christmas………  Just my luck I meet a  really nice bloke, who is local, lovely and his going to be working away.  A little bit gutted if I am honest.  Whilst I know we have only just met, to have a chance of getting to know someone you need to see them and with him Birmingham are we going to be able to do this?

The time seems to fly, the table is cleared and we decided to skip pudding as we are both full. We head back to mine for a cuppa ….. yes just a cuppa no funny business… well just a kiss. He even asked if he could kiss me. I am really not used to this at all it’s totally different.

I am looking forward to the next date.

 

Normally on a Tuesday night I meet up with friends or chill out at home but not tonight, tonight Adam is taking me out for dinner. I am getting those date nerves but the nice ones!

I am really looking forward to seeing him tonight as we didn’t get to meet up on Sunday. I won’t lie I did have the hump with him for letting me down as I hate that, and I thought here we go again another one that makes plans then lets you down at the last-minute. But when he called me we had a laugh and I told him from the off I wasn’t happy, I thought it was better to be honest with him and tell him why.  He took it really well and said sorry. I must admit though he sounded rough, self-inflicted rough as he had been on the lash with the boys for the last 2 days but he doesn’t get to see his mates a lot and I think it’s nice that they all make the effort to get together.

He kept saying “I’ll make it up to you babe!” Mmmmm where have I heard that before? Electrician Essex Boy used to say it a lot but never actually did anything. I don’t know Adam that well yet so who knows he might not be like the others, I have to give him the benefit of the doubt and see what happens.

2nd dates are fun as you get to see if you do really like that person, you get to see another side to them as 1st dates people are normally too nervous, they relax more on the 2nd one.

Oh I forgot to say I have the 2 biggest spot on my face they appeared out of nowhere today….. ok they are not that big but I never normally suffer with spots so why today of all day!  Cover up here I come!

I should get a wiggle on, I’ve got a train to catch, quick change then I am out again.

Wish me luck!

 

 

I woke up on Sunday and decided it was time to join the gym again, not that I’m really a gym person but I do love to go swimming. So I picked up my friend Bouche in the city and off we went.

I was glad to get out the house as I had a date in the afternoon and I really didn’t want to sit at home thinking about it all and getting even more nervous.  Bouche helped take my mind off the up and coming date. We swum for a bit, had a Jacuzzi, sauna and a steam and of course a gossip.

By the time I got home I was running a bit late but Adam was fine he said he would meet me in the pub.  I was so nervous before I left the house that I had a glass of wine… Not the best move as, and not always I come out all red my face feels like it’s on fire. I’ve been to the doctors about this a few years ago and was told I could be allergic to alcohol WHAT! That can’t be true.

As I got closer to the pub I give him a call to find out where he was sitting, he ended up coming outside to meet me. Bless him what a nice bloke I even got a little peck on the cheek.

Did he look like his pictures? I am pleased to say he did. He seems like a lovely bloke with the most beautiful eyes.

We got some drinks and grab a table, the pub isn’t busy so we are able to chat which is nice.

It’s funny when you chat to someone online you never actually know what they are going to be like but you sort of have an idea in your head. I thought Adam would be a down to earth bloke, from what his told me he is a hard worker and a bit of a family bloke. I’ll admit I thought he was going to be a bit too nice if you get what I mean, but his not his just right.

He had some great stories that made me laugh, the more we chatted the more we relaxed or was that the vodka?

Adam has only been separated from his wife for 6 months and I had my reservations about meeting up with him due to that, but I am glad I put that to one side as I had a brilliant afternoon.

Will I be seeing him again? Yes I will most definitely.

 

After a very busy week at work I was looking forward to the weekend. I had a date planned for Friday night but that didn’t happen. In one way I was secretly pleased. I was telling the girls on Saturday. I feel like I SHOULD be dating but to be honest I don’t want to just yet. I can’t stop thinking about my Electrician Essex boy it’s doing my head in. I miss chatting to him, he didn’t always have a lot to say but he always made me laugh.

Saturday was another gorgeous day and we had planned a girlie Sex In The City afternoon tea,  5 * hotel, cakes (check out the pic at the bottom), champagne, flirtni’s it was lovely and a chance for us girls to catch up. Two of the girls couldn’t make it but it was still nice to see the others.

After our posh afternoon tea we headed back home to Dartford football club as they were having a ladies night. Now this might just be us but when someone says ladies night, we thought, strippers, baby oiled up men, g strings….. our imagination’s were running wild!  Lucky we have good imagination’s  as when we arrived we were faced with a sea of bored housewive’s sitting around listening to a singer, who was very good may I just add but he didn’t know any songs from this era!  

We thought our prayers had been answered when the smoke alarm went off,  two fire engines turned up, but they were real fireman and they were not interested in getting their hose out for anyone! 

We were tempted to join the 18th birthday party as the music up there was excellent but we decided to call it a night. I have to say, I wasn’t expecting to be sober when I got home at 11pm but we still had a giggle.

All in all it was a great weekend even managed to sort out my garden with the help of my parents.

Who know’s what this week has in store for me, but I’ll be ready for it as always.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I feel like I have lost the will to live to be honest with you, but you have got to be in it to win it!

I have re activated my account on plenty of issues but finding it a bit hard as my Electrician Essex boy is also on there and he keeps popping up. I really wish things had been different with us. I miss chatting to the miserable sod haha.

I used to find the online dating thing fun but now I’m finding it hard work. I can normally talk the hind legs off a donkey but it’s just not happening for me at the moment. It’s like having another job, I finish one then I feel like I have to start my next one … Flicking through all the pictures and reading profiles which all seem to say the same thing!  A friend of mine recently asked me if there was anyone at work I liked?  Honestly no there isn’t I’ve done the work thing before and yes it was fun … Actually very fun, but I really don’t want to get into that again, I like my job too much.

I have never been fussy about the people I speak to …in that I mean, I’ve never minded where they live, if they have kids, if they were once married etc but maybe I should? But doesn’t that defeat the whole point of doing internet dating that you meet someone who you wouldn’t normally?

At my age it’s rare to find someone who doesn’t have kids, or a past and that is fair enough. We all have a past that is what makes us.

Maybe I need to find a new dating site? If you have any suggestions please let me know.

 

 

 

Nothing! That’s what.

After a few good weeks with my Electrician Essex Boy things have come to an end AGAIN. But this time I’m fine about it as I think deep down I knew this would happen.

I’m a talker so when things are bothering me I need to say something as I don’t see the point in bottling things up. Where does that get you?

 

Maybe things would have been different if……. Well actually it doesn’t matter now.

 

I’m glad he got in touch again and we tried again as there would have always been that horrible “what if” in my mind.

We had some great nights,lots of laughing so I am thankful for that.

My time will come and in the mean time who knows what will happen!