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I am spreading the love for Slimming World as in my first week I managed to lose 6lbs. I am so pleased.  It may not seem a lot but it has given me the motivation to stick with it.

Don’t worry I am not stupid I know that in the first few weeks you always lose a bit more than normal but I don’t mind even if I lose a few pounds a week as it all helps.

Normally on weigh in day I have a little cheat….. That’s probably where I have gone wrong in the past. This time I didn’t though I continued with the plan and used my full 15 syns.

Doing this “healthy eating plan” has made me put myself first which is nice. I am really enjoying the swimming, even when I am feeling shattered in the evenings once I am in there I feel so much better.

Also it has taken my mind off dating.  It’s nice to have a break as otherwise you find yourself talking to people who you know are not really your cup of tea, so why waste your time and there’s making idle chit chat.

I am still chatting to my Electrician Essex Boy. If I am honest I have no idea what is going on as we both flirt with each other and there still seems to be a spark but I have decided that what will be will be and I will not get hung up about it. He was always a hard one to read so best not even try.

Being friends is good enough for me at the moment or am I just kidding myself?!

 

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Normally on a Tuesday night I meet up with friends or chill out at home but not tonight, tonight Adam is taking me out for dinner. I am getting those date nerves but the nice ones!

I am really looking forward to seeing him tonight as we didn’t get to meet up on Sunday. I won’t lie I did have the hump with him for letting me down as I hate that, and I thought here we go again another one that makes plans then lets you down at the last-minute. But when he called me we had a laugh and I told him from the off I wasn’t happy, I thought it was better to be honest with him and tell him why.  He took it really well and said sorry. I must admit though he sounded rough, self-inflicted rough as he had been on the lash with the boys for the last 2 days but he doesn’t get to see his mates a lot and I think it’s nice that they all make the effort to get together.

He kept saying “I’ll make it up to you babe!” Mmmmm where have I heard that before? Electrician Essex Boy used to say it a lot but never actually did anything. I don’t know Adam that well yet so who knows he might not be like the others, I have to give him the benefit of the doubt and see what happens.

2nd dates are fun as you get to see if you do really like that person, you get to see another side to them as 1st dates people are normally too nervous, they relax more on the 2nd one.

Oh I forgot to say I have the 2 biggest spot on my face they appeared out of nowhere today….. ok they are not that big but I never normally suffer with spots so why today of all day!  Cover up here I come!

I should get a wiggle on, I’ve got a train to catch, quick change then I am out again.

Wish me luck!

 

 

After a very busy week at work I was looking forward to the weekend. I had a date planned for Friday night but that didn’t happen. In one way I was secretly pleased. I was telling the girls on Saturday. I feel like I SHOULD be dating but to be honest I don’t want to just yet. I can’t stop thinking about my Electrician Essex boy it’s doing my head in. I miss chatting to him, he didn’t always have a lot to say but he always made me laugh.

Saturday was another gorgeous day and we had planned a girlie Sex In The City afternoon tea,  5 * hotel, cakes (check out the pic at the bottom), champagne, flirtni’s it was lovely and a chance for us girls to catch up. Two of the girls couldn’t make it but it was still nice to see the others.

After our posh afternoon tea we headed back home to Dartford football club as they were having a ladies night. Now this might just be us but when someone says ladies night, we thought, strippers, baby oiled up men, g strings….. our imagination’s were running wild!  Lucky we have good imagination’s  as when we arrived we were faced with a sea of bored housewive’s sitting around listening to a singer, who was very good may I just add but he didn’t know any songs from this era!  

We thought our prayers had been answered when the smoke alarm went off,  two fire engines turned up, but they were real fireman and they were not interested in getting their hose out for anyone! 

We were tempted to join the 18th birthday party as the music up there was excellent but we decided to call it a night. I have to say, I wasn’t expecting to be sober when I got home at 11pm but we still had a giggle.

All in all it was a great weekend even managed to sort out my garden with the help of my parents.

Who know’s what this week has in store for me, but I’ll be ready for it as always.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I feel like I have lost the will to live to be honest with you, but you have got to be in it to win it!

I have re activated my account on plenty of issues but finding it a bit hard as my Electrician Essex boy is also on there and he keeps popping up. I really wish things had been different with us. I miss chatting to the miserable sod haha.

I used to find the online dating thing fun but now I’m finding it hard work. I can normally talk the hind legs off a donkey but it’s just not happening for me at the moment. It’s like having another job, I finish one then I feel like I have to start my next one … Flicking through all the pictures and reading profiles which all seem to say the same thing!  A friend of mine recently asked me if there was anyone at work I liked?  Honestly no there isn’t I’ve done the work thing before and yes it was fun … Actually very fun, but I really don’t want to get into that again, I like my job too much.

I have never been fussy about the people I speak to …in that I mean, I’ve never minded where they live, if they have kids, if they were once married etc but maybe I should? But doesn’t that defeat the whole point of doing internet dating that you meet someone who you wouldn’t normally?

At my age it’s rare to find someone who doesn’t have kids, or a past and that is fair enough. We all have a past that is what makes us.

Maybe I need to find a new dating site? If you have any suggestions please let me know.

 

 

 

Nothing! That’s what.

After a few good weeks with my Electrician Essex Boy things have come to an end AGAIN. But this time I’m fine about it as I think deep down I knew this would happen.

I’m a talker so when things are bothering me I need to say something as I don’t see the point in bottling things up. Where does that get you?

 

Maybe things would have been different if……. Well actually it doesn’t matter now.

 

I’m glad he got in touch again and we tried again as there would have always been that horrible “what if” in my mind.

We had some great nights,lots of laughing so I am thankful for that.

My time will come and in the mean time who knows what will happen!

 

 

For the last month or so I have been trying to get over my Electrician Essex Boy and it’s not been easy at all. It never is when you like someone. Normally I would get myself out on a date but this time I have not wanted too, why…. Because it wasn’t with him!

Then a few Friday’s ago I was sitting in the office, When  my phone lights up with a number that I don’t know……..

“How’s you stranger? x”

 I have no idea who it is so I reply “Sorry who is this?”

The next reply was not what I was expecting…. “It’s your electrician friend”

My heart literally missed a beat… Yes you guessed it, its My Electrician Essex Boy.

Whilst I am happy that his got in touch with me, it’s the last thing I was expecting. We text for a bit, doing the, how have you been chat…. When really all I want to say is why did you stop talking to me! but I resist for a bit. Not for long though as I can’t help it, so I blurt out, “what happened that weekend?”

And I wait…….

It doesn’t take him long to come back to me with an answer. It seems that he had been getting grief from his ex and he read something that he shouldn’t have read. I go back to him saying, you having trouble with your ex doesn’t mean you need to take it out on me.

That’s when he comes back with, I read your blog……….. the one about your ex getting in touch with you!

From the start I told him that I wrote a dating blog and he found it funny, but he always said he couldn’t remember the name of it and therefore wouldn’t read it, and to be honest I didn’t think he would be interested in it. To me writing this blog, is my escapism, as no one really knows who I am, so I can say what I truly feel at the time. Some say that I don’t show my emotions much, but I think I do when I write my blogs as people don’t judge me.

It turns out he was pissed off/upset that I didn’t tell him about the ex, but I didn’t feel I needed to tell him as it didn’t mean anything to me. I’ll admit, I thought about telling him but thought better of it, as I was scared he would think there was more to it and there wasn’t. It doesn’t matter what I did as I lost him anyway, or have I?

What is it with blokes, why can’t they talk about stuff.  If he had said to me about it I would have told him everything. I didn’t want to hide anything from him, I liked him too much for that. Anyway no point going over the,should have, could have, would have.

So what happens now with My Electrician Essex Boy…… Well It’s been a few weeks now since he got in touch and I am pleased to say it is going well.

I love that we are speaking again and when I see him it makes me smile.  What more can I ask for!

I am a very happy Doris.

It’s been a month since I broke up with Electrician Essex Boy.  Well I am guessing we have broken up as he hasn’t spoken to me since that silly row, and I know he hasn’t broken his fingers as his back on the dating site that we met on, so his able to type. Ha ha

There are have been some tears, a lot of thinking and even a bit of anger, as we all go through those stages. Now I am at the stage where I am chatting to people again but I am just not feeling it. I have been chatting to some really nice blokes, but as soon as they say lets chat on the phone or those dreaded words, let’s meet up. I seem to run the other way.

Dating is all about the thrill of the chase, chatting to people, and wondering what will happen if you actually meet up. Will you or wont you get on? Will you have that spark?

It’s exciting when you’re dating.  I love it when you are getting ready and you have butterflies in your stomach, nerves are taking over.

Whilst writing this, it has got me thinking. I need to forget everything that has happened and I just need to be myself and have a laugh again.

If I meet up with someone and we get on then great and if we don’t maybe I’ll make a good friend or maybe I won’t but if I don’t try I am never going to know!

So if you find my …… please return to sender ASAP, you will know its mine as it will be labelled up, Lovable, Ginger, Essex, A Little Mad but in a good way!

 

Hobby!

Yes a hobby. I am so bored at the moment.  The feeling sorry for myself about breaking up with Electrician Essex Boy has now gone. That was quick I hear you say but come on lets be honest if he cant talk to me to tell me what was going then his not for me.

I may sound strong but I’ll let you into a secret,inside I am hurting like you wouldn’t know but if I tell myself that I am over it and I am happy then I will be.  There is no point in wasting my time thinking about someone who clearly isn’t thinking about me.

I deserve better!

I was talking to a friend of mine and said what makes you happy?

A few months ago I would have said dating makes me happy, how bad does that sound. It was fun and always a good laugh chatting to the girls about the nights events.

Now this shouldn’t have been a hard question but I actually didn’t have an answer. Of course my family and friends make me happy. But family and friends have their own lives to be getting on with. Its time to have something for me …… but what?

It seems like all I do is go to work, come home eat and do it all again the next day…..

I am going to look at a gym as I have been informed that exercising releases happy endorphins making you feel lots better about yourself, and who knows there might be some hot guys in the gym!

The same friend that asked me the question suggested dog walking…. she said this has she has two gorgeous dogs that I adore especially Charlie, I think it’s because he is ginger like me! Ha ha  

I am always open to ideas so if you can think of a hobby for me let me know!

It’s fair to say that when us girls have a gut feeling we are 99% of the time right!

If you have been reading my blog for a few weeks you will know that I had been seeing my Electrician Essex Boy for 9 weeks and I thought I was happy, but deep down I wasn’t. I was finding it really hard.

We broke up at the weekend and to be honest I am still a little angry as I feel like he is being a child, he won’t talk to me or reply to texts which infuriates me. But there is nothing I can do. So that’s it.

Did the last 9 weeks not mean anything to him?

Am I that bad a person that he can’t bring himself to speak to me and say look Doris this isn’t working.

I can’t believe I got it wrong again…….

I liked him he made me laugh and at first he made me feel special but that all started to change. Some people will think I am needy and maybe I am but I can’t help how I feel. I know I am scarred from past relationships and I tried so hard not to bring any of those insecurities into this relationship. I tried talking to friends about how I was feeling but some of them just didn’t get it.

What’s that saying “Once bitten twice shy” that is definitely me.

Maybe I’m not cut out to be in a relationship, which is sad as I know that one day I would love to have little Doris’s running around, a family of my own, oh and a dog!

I think it’s fair to say it’s not my time yet. So in the mean time I am going to concentrate on me!

I might finally join that gym, might be good to try and keep this break up weight ive lost so far off.  7lbs in 4 days isnt bad going!

 

For the last few weeks I don’t feel like I’ve been myself. Work has been so busy lots of change going on and more responsibility. Which is great but I’m pretty hard on myself at work. It’s what us Virgo’s are like.

At work I am one person and at home I’m another. But just lately I have turned into someone who analyses everything and it’s doing my head in.

Thinking about it though it’s not a recent thing. Over the past two years my ex’s haven’t been the nicest of people cheaters, liars, they really hurt me and I think I’m still paying for it.

I don’t seem to be able really show how I feel as I think it’s going to get thrown back in my face or worse I’ll find out that it’s all a lie and his seeing someone else. I really do not want to have to have a conversation with my boyfriend’s fiancé again!

When does this feeling go away? Does it ever?

My best mate said that I don’t always show my emotion and that upset me. I thought I was an open book but it seems I’m not.

I hate the way this is making me feel. Things have been going well with my Electrician Essex Boy but I feel like I’m waiting for something to go wrong. I would like to point out he is nothing like any of my ex’s far from it but it doesn’t stop me thinking the way I do.

When I meet up with my Electrician Essex boy all I want to do is give him a big fat snog but I don’t ……

The girls are always saying Go with the flow, I should give this a go.

We are all allowed our off days/weeks and this is most certainly one of mine!