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Should I be this nervous about my first weigh in?

No as I have been so good but I am, Why? Because if I have not lost a lot I will feel really de motivated which is silly I know.

My dad always say’s any loss however small it is, is better than putting on. Dad’s are always right so I should listen to him, even at my age.

I feel a lot better in myself this week, not bloated and sluggish so that in itself should be a good enough reason to stick with this new “healthy eating plan”. I have even started back swimming again with my good friend Bouche in the city. I think she may have swallowed some of the pool as we are always gossiping while in there. Having someone else to do this stuff with is great. I don’t mind going on my own as it gives me to think.

Starting my “healthy eating plan” means a lot to me as I was starting to lose confidence in myself and that is not an attractive thing. If I don’t love myself how do I expect others too?

There is a certain someone back on the scene, Electrician Essex boy……… you may remember a few posts from last year about him. Would or could we ever be anything else? I am really not sure but it is always nice to have more friends.

30 minutes until I find out how well or how bad I have really done.

Wish me luck.

 

I feel like I have lost the will to live to be honest with you, but you have got to be in it to win it!

I have re activated my account on plenty of issues but finding it a bit hard as my Electrician Essex boy is also on there and he keeps popping up. I really wish things had been different with us. I miss chatting to the miserable sod haha.

I used to find the online dating thing fun but now I’m finding it hard work. I can normally talk the hind legs off a donkey but it’s just not happening for me at the moment. It’s like having another job, I finish one then I feel like I have to start my next one … Flicking through all the pictures and reading profiles which all seem to say the same thing!  A friend of mine recently asked me if there was anyone at work I liked?  Honestly no there isn’t I’ve done the work thing before and yes it was fun … Actually very fun, but I really don’t want to get into that again, I like my job too much.

I have never been fussy about the people I speak to …in that I mean, I’ve never minded where they live, if they have kids, if they were once married etc but maybe I should? But doesn’t that defeat the whole point of doing internet dating that you meet someone who you wouldn’t normally?

At my age it’s rare to find someone who doesn’t have kids, or a past and that is fair enough. We all have a past that is what makes us.

Maybe I need to find a new dating site? If you have any suggestions please let me know.

 

For the last month or so I have been trying to get over my Electrician Essex Boy and it’s not been easy at all. It never is when you like someone. Normally I would get myself out on a date but this time I have not wanted too, why…. Because it wasn’t with him!

Then a few Friday’s ago I was sitting in the office, When  my phone lights up with a number that I don’t know……..

“How’s you stranger? x”

 I have no idea who it is so I reply “Sorry who is this?”

The next reply was not what I was expecting…. “It’s your electrician friend”

My heart literally missed a beat… Yes you guessed it, its My Electrician Essex Boy.

Whilst I am happy that his got in touch with me, it’s the last thing I was expecting. We text for a bit, doing the, how have you been chat…. When really all I want to say is why did you stop talking to me! but I resist for a bit. Not for long though as I can’t help it, so I blurt out, “what happened that weekend?”

And I wait…….

It doesn’t take him long to come back to me with an answer. It seems that he had been getting grief from his ex and he read something that he shouldn’t have read. I go back to him saying, you having trouble with your ex doesn’t mean you need to take it out on me.

That’s when he comes back with, I read your blog……….. the one about your ex getting in touch with you!

From the start I told him that I wrote a dating blog and he found it funny, but he always said he couldn’t remember the name of it and therefore wouldn’t read it, and to be honest I didn’t think he would be interested in it. To me writing this blog, is my escapism, as no one really knows who I am, so I can say what I truly feel at the time. Some say that I don’t show my emotions much, but I think I do when I write my blogs as people don’t judge me.

It turns out he was pissed off/upset that I didn’t tell him about the ex, but I didn’t feel I needed to tell him as it didn’t mean anything to me. I’ll admit, I thought about telling him but thought better of it, as I was scared he would think there was more to it and there wasn’t. It doesn’t matter what I did as I lost him anyway, or have I?

What is it with blokes, why can’t they talk about stuff.  If he had said to me about it I would have told him everything. I didn’t want to hide anything from him, I liked him too much for that. Anyway no point going over the,should have, could have, would have.

So what happens now with My Electrician Essex Boy…… Well It’s been a few weeks now since he got in touch and I am pleased to say it is going well.

I love that we are speaking again and when I see him it makes me smile.  What more can I ask for!

I am a very happy Doris.

It’s been a month since I broke up with Electrician Essex Boy.  Well I am guessing we have broken up as he hasn’t spoken to me since that silly row, and I know he hasn’t broken his fingers as his back on the dating site that we met on, so his able to type. Ha ha

There are have been some tears, a lot of thinking and even a bit of anger, as we all go through those stages. Now I am at the stage where I am chatting to people again but I am just not feeling it. I have been chatting to some really nice blokes, but as soon as they say lets chat on the phone or those dreaded words, let’s meet up. I seem to run the other way.

Dating is all about the thrill of the chase, chatting to people, and wondering what will happen if you actually meet up. Will you or wont you get on? Will you have that spark?

It’s exciting when you’re dating.  I love it when you are getting ready and you have butterflies in your stomach, nerves are taking over.

Whilst writing this, it has got me thinking. I need to forget everything that has happened and I just need to be myself and have a laugh again.

If I meet up with someone and we get on then great and if we don’t maybe I’ll make a good friend or maybe I won’t but if I don’t try I am never going to know!

So if you find my …… please return to sender ASAP, you will know its mine as it will be labelled up, Lovable, Ginger, Essex, A Little Mad but in a good way!

 

My new housemate has now moved in and the house feels alive again. The last few lodgers have been people who are moving on after a few month’s. Stacey (she’s Welsh and I’m a fan of Gavin and Stacey) has a permanent job in the area and wants to feel settled as the last 7 months have been exhausting for her. The last house she rented a room in was a shared place with six guys, can you imagine that! 

When I got home last Monday after a manic day at work it was nice to see Stacey in the house making her room look all homely. We had a quick chat and she tells me that she’s not really sure how she feels about the guy she is seeing. Guess where she met him. Plenty of fish or should I say plenty of issues!

I said to her about me going Yoga! Yes you heard me right I was going to try it. After the last few weeks I needed something for me. Now I’ve never tried  it before but if you don’t try these things your never know.

Off we trot to the local gym. It must be our lucky night as we manage to get the last two places. I never knew it was so popular.

We walk into the studio and meet the teacher…. Who looks at us like we have 2 heads!

Hi we are new to this, To which she replies oh great new people I’m surprised you got in as this class is normally fully booked! Ok….. Well we did and here we are! 

We collect our mats and like children take them to the back of the room. Have you ever done yoga? She bellows across the studio. No we both replied but we have been told it’s good. Well I’ll explain more when the class starts! There are 12 of us in the studio and she begins. Now one thing I’ve found out already about Stacey is that when she’s nervous she laughs….. Not the best of things in a yoga class so I avoid eye contact with her.

She tells us to sit with our legs crossed and relax our shoulders and close our eyes. I’m liking this. Not too bad after all. Then she tells us to do other things, but as we are new we don’t know what she is talking about so I open my eyes to see what the others are doing to be told please close my eye. How am I meant to know what to do?

So I try as much as I can whilst peeking through one eye open and I actually enjoy it. At the end of the class you have a 10/15min cool down and this was great you lay there and think of nothing apart from your body and how it feels. I know this sounds strange but honestly it felt great. I came out feeling so tired but uber relaxed.

Maybe yoga is my new thing…. As long as I can find another class.

When people say a problem shared is a problem halved, they are right!

It has been a strange few week’s… or if I am honest months. And during this time I have distanced myself from my friends when I needed them the most. It all came to a head when my best friend and I had a falling out which is most unheard of.

It was time to come clean about things, and I did. I was so worried about saying certain things but it felt so good to get it all off my chest. My friends have all said that they miss the happy and jolly Doris. So do I.

I am trying my best to get her back.

Work has been a difficult place to be as it seems we have been going through big changes every month. I think it’s now settling down, I am actually enjoying going into work. Don’t get me wrong it’s still busy and busy means you’re not clock watching so I am happy.

 My love life has been like a roller coaster. You all know that the last 9 weeks have been a struggle for me with a certain someone. But in a strange way I feel happier that we are not together anymore. My ex rocking up at my house really threw me and got me questioning myself about things that should never be questioned.

But that is all in the past. The next few months I am going to concentrate on me, me, me and my friends.

Don’t panic I havent given up dating altogether. I am still chatting to people but I have been honest and told them that I am not looking for anything at the moment.  

So watch this space, New Doris is coming soon!