Archives for category: Nervous

Should I be this nervous about my first weigh in?

No as I have been so good but I am, Why? Because if I have not lost a lot I will feel really de motivated which is silly I know.

My dad always say’s any loss however small it is, is better than putting on. Dad’s are always right so I should listen to him, even at my age.

I feel a lot better in myself this week, not bloated and sluggish so that in itself should be a good enough reason to stick with this new “healthy eating plan”. I have even started back swimming again with my good friend Bouche in the city. I think she may have swallowed some of the pool as we are always gossiping while in there. Having someone else to do this stuff with is great. I don’t mind going on my own as it gives me to think.

Starting my “healthy eating plan” means a lot to me as I was starting to lose confidence in myself and that is not an attractive thing. If I don’t love myself how do I expect others too?

There is a certain someone back on the scene, Electrician Essex boy……… you may remember a few posts from last year about him. Would or could we ever be anything else? I am really not sure but it is always nice to have more friends.

30 minutes until I find out how well or how bad I have really done.

Wish me luck.

 

Normally on a Tuesday night I meet up with friends or chill out at home but not tonight, tonight Adam is taking me out for dinner. I am getting those date nerves but the nice ones!

I am really looking forward to seeing him tonight as we didn’t get to meet up on Sunday. I won’t lie I did have the hump with him for letting me down as I hate that, and I thought here we go again another one that makes plans then lets you down at the last-minute. But when he called me we had a laugh and I told him from the off I wasn’t happy, I thought it was better to be honest with him and tell him why.  He took it really well and said sorry. I must admit though he sounded rough, self-inflicted rough as he had been on the lash with the boys for the last 2 days but he doesn’t get to see his mates a lot and I think it’s nice that they all make the effort to get together.

He kept saying “I’ll make it up to you babe!” Mmmmm where have I heard that before? Electrician Essex Boy used to say it a lot but never actually did anything. I don’t know Adam that well yet so who knows he might not be like the others, I have to give him the benefit of the doubt and see what happens.

2nd dates are fun as you get to see if you do really like that person, you get to see another side to them as 1st dates people are normally too nervous, they relax more on the 2nd one.

Oh I forgot to say I have the 2 biggest spot on my face they appeared out of nowhere today….. ok they are not that big but I never normally suffer with spots so why today of all day!  Cover up here I come!

I should get a wiggle on, I’ve got a train to catch, quick change then I am out again.

Wish me luck!

 

 

I woke up on Sunday and decided it was time to join the gym again, not that I’m really a gym person but I do love to go swimming. So I picked up my friend Bouche in the city and off we went.

I was glad to get out the house as I had a date in the afternoon and I really didn’t want to sit at home thinking about it all and getting even more nervous.  Bouche helped take my mind off the up and coming date. We swum for a bit, had a Jacuzzi, sauna and a steam and of course a gossip.

By the time I got home I was running a bit late but Adam was fine he said he would meet me in the pub.  I was so nervous before I left the house that I had a glass of wine… Not the best move as, and not always I come out all red my face feels like it’s on fire. I’ve been to the doctors about this a few years ago and was told I could be allergic to alcohol WHAT! That can’t be true.

As I got closer to the pub I give him a call to find out where he was sitting, he ended up coming outside to meet me. Bless him what a nice bloke I even got a little peck on the cheek.

Did he look like his pictures? I am pleased to say he did. He seems like a lovely bloke with the most beautiful eyes.

We got some drinks and grab a table, the pub isn’t busy so we are able to chat which is nice.

It’s funny when you chat to someone online you never actually know what they are going to be like but you sort of have an idea in your head. I thought Adam would be a down to earth bloke, from what his told me he is a hard worker and a bit of a family bloke. I’ll admit I thought he was going to be a bit too nice if you get what I mean, but his not his just right.

He had some great stories that made me laugh, the more we chatted the more we relaxed or was that the vodka?

Adam has only been separated from his wife for 6 months and I had my reservations about meeting up with him due to that, but I am glad I put that to one side as I had a brilliant afternoon.

Will I be seeing him again? Yes I will most definitely.